I spend hours yawning in front of this window. Years and seasons went by and nothing seemed to change. I pressed my knees against the heater under the window when I was recording my tapes. I rested my head on my hand when I was writing out lyrics that I did not understand. I studied and I failed. I toasted and I stared. I waited for another scenery to pop up in front of my eyes. I waited for another life to present itself to me. I waved at my boyfriend who arrived on his scooter. I ran on my socks to get the mail. It was usually just the paper. I watched the dog eating a rat that she catched in the water. I laughed at my brother catching fish bare naked. Then it was boredom. Now it is the heart of me.